When I started having repressed memories of childhood sexual abuse return, I would go through long periods of time when I would dissociate.  I would feel very detached and cut off from pretty much everything and everybody, but especially from any sense of a Higher Power. This song was written during one of the times when I had an epiphany of awareness and connection with one of the memories that left me feeling whole again and back in touch with my surroundings.

God, it's been so very long
since I have had a talk with You this way
I just wanted You to know, that I've missed You so
and I'm sure glad I'm back with You today.

  I've learned so many lessons in this life
  but I turned my back on You and walked away
  cuz I just couldn't see,
  that you were there protecting me
  giving courage, to survive.

God, I really think You should know
I was scared I'd never find You again
I was out there all alone
far away from home
wondering if I'd ever feel close again.

   But now I understand just where I was
   I had to walk through pain to feel the joy
   Now the truth has set me free
   And finally yes I can see
   I am Your precious child.

Yes, I am pure
I am clean and I am whole
No longer must I believe I am bad
After all those years, and through all the tears
I'm just so grateful for what I know today
Oh yes, I'm just so thankful for all I feel today.

God, it's been so very long
since I have had a talk with You this way
I just wanted You to know, that I've missed You so
And I'm sure glad I'm back with You today
And I sure hope that I am back with You to stay.

Hmmmm, Hmmmmmm
.....Yes I sure hope that I am back with You to stay....